It Really Makes You Feel Like a Puppet
Darren West | Sam McCoy | Victor Roske; February 3-15, 2007
Voice Mail: Sam McCoy to Darren West; February 3, 2007
Uh... I don't know what I should be saying exactly here. Do you know about anything that happened yesterday? I think... I'll just assume you don't.
What the hell, it's... fuck, it's unbelievable. It's great news. Ferdinand is dead. Bojan Petrov is alive. He's... Ferdinand never actually killed him, just made everyone think he did. The whole time he was, uh... he was hidden somehow. Even hidden from the others -
[McCoy's voice breaks and there are a few seconds of silence. He starts again, businesslike.]
We brought him back. He's safe. He doesn't really remember much of what happened. But I'm sure he wants to see you.
He also wants his old job back. We... ought to talk about that.
I hope to speak to you soon.
Voice Mail: Darren West to Sam McCoy; February 15, 2007
[West sounds a little short of breath. Like he is a little worked up and his mind is very distracted.]
I know it has taken me a while to get back to you.
Listen, that all sounds great. Really great. Congratulations, Sam.
- And Bojan. wow. I really can't believe it. Auberon told me he was dead for sure. I really can't believe that he is back. That he is alive. I don't believe it. I... [He trails off. Hesounds at a loss for words.]
I... I just...
Listen, Sam... I... uh... I am not sure how to say this exactly.
I... uh... well listen. I am in Chicago by the way. I don't know if you know that.
...and - god - we have been making so much progress...
It looks like I am not going to be coming back, though, is the thing.
I don't really completely understand yet. I owe Lord Nicolai a Life Boon and I am grateful to him. but he is calling it in and... [trails off again]
[talking more freely, as if sort of just talking to himself but happens to be including you] ...you know it's so weird McCoy, you know? Here I thought that I was on the road to having it made. I thought I was on top. I could do anything. People trusted me and believed in me. Talking back to me was a weighty but sometimes profitable risk. I had respect, Sam. But apparently that respect is just a smoke screen.
Something weird is going on that I can't quite figure out. There is no way that taking me out of New York is in the Camarilla's best interest. Nicolai says something about the deal he made with Evans being misinterpreted and that he could be in trouble. It's really fucked up. I owe Nicolai everything. I can't leave him hanging in the cold now, but this is my entire existence.
[laughs sadly] It really makes you feel like a puppet.
So anyway everything is lost for me in New York. Here I am trying to help the Camarilla and the Camarilla comes and destroys my life. Again. It's ridiculous...
[long pause. West continues after he seems to have regained some composure.]
Nicolai says that in some time I can get set up with a good political standing somewhere else in the world. I don't feel particularly good about it. Frankly, I am not even sure what I will do.
But if I get myself established somewhere, and things aren't good for you in New York, I hope that you will consider coming to work with me again. In this weird 'life' we live its hard to find people worth working with. Sometimes you think you have one and it ends up that actually he is hated by the rest of your entire staff.
I owe you status McCoy. I am going to check with Auberon for what I can do. Perhaps I am still technically Prince until someone claims Domain. I don't know. I fear what will happen to New York next. [pausing, as if he is contemplating New York's political future.]
I don't have things very well thought through yet. Maybe I will get a chance to talk to you again soon. Maybe I will figure more out by then.
Here is my bank information (if you don't already have it) related to the Mansion. [OOC Information] Perhaps I can sign it over to you or someone else in New York. Obviously I don't need it anymore, although I do have a lot of capital invested in the estate.
I really can't believe all of this. Leave me a message if I don't answer. I am not sure what is going to happen next.
Goodbye for now.
Voice Mail: Darren West to Auberon Xerices; February 15, 2007
"I realize this is informal, and I am not sure exactly how 'legal' what I am about to do is... but...
As Prince of New York I would like you to officially note the following status awards:
Within the Camarilla Adam Jones shall be known as Respected, for loyal and competent service to the Camarilla unwaveringly since the start of my Princeship.
Within the Camarilla Samuel McCoy shall be known as Well Connected and also as Feared. His energy spearheaded the quest to secure our safety in New York. He turned the hunters into the hunted and brought back a dear member of the Camarilla thought by all to be lost forever.
Furthermore, Bojan Petrov will be known as Exalted. Despite the hell and despair that must have plagued him over the last few months, he has returned to the Camarilla of New York to redouble his efforts in our fight.
These status awards are duly deserved, and I would consider it a personal favor if as soon as possible you can make them official through court announcement or your traveling word.
Off the record, I am not sure if I am going to have the opportunity to announce these status awards myself.
Well... I just would like to say that I would have liked to work more closely with you, and that I hope that I was always right to trust your opinion and judgment as I did. You served very loyally. I hope that our paths will cross again in the future, whether that be soon or not...
Once I have more things figured out I will call you again and try to help facilitate the political difficulties that are going to soon fall upon the city of New York. I can't believe that this is happening this way. Feel free to call, but leave a message if I don't answer.
Voice Mail: Darren West to Victor Roske; February 15, 2007
"Jesus. Things are so fucked up.
"I uh.. I won't be coming back to New York.
"I am in Chicago right now. I am not sure if you know that.
"But I can't leave. Or at least, I can't go back to New York. I am not totally sure.
"Something is fucked up about my Life Boon with Lord Nicolai. He saved my life, you know. I owe him everything. But he is calling it in and I can never return to New York. Of course things change. Forever is a long time.
"I am really not sure what I am going to do. Nicolai says he can set me up with a good political future somewhere else. Frankly, I think it is bullshit. I am not sure if something weird is going on behind the scenes here or what. All I know is that taking me out of New York is not in the best interest of the Camarilla.
"Apparently some things are just out of my control. The Camarilla is a bitch, Roske. Just when you think you've figured out how to do it correctly, it decides to fuck you over again.
"Listen. Here is a bunch of information of people who work in NYPD. these people used to work for Haldor, but he was terrible with them. They are happy to be looking for new jobs. I wish I could be there to help finesse them to get to know you, but you will just have to handle it yourself. Don't tell Haldor about it, he might get bitter or something.
"Listen, I am not sure where I am going to end up. We will talk again. I will definitely let you know when I have figured more stuff out. You should stay in New York, unless you fear for your safety. You and Bojan should stick together. Trust McCoy. He doesn't like bullshit, and I don't think you have any to give him. Don't trust Jones to do anything that doesn't ultimately help himself. He is full of shit. God DAMN I can't believe this is actually happening...
"I really don't know what I am going to do, next. All I can say is that if you ever need an ally outside of New York, I am one. I hope that our paths cross again, Roske.
[darker] "I feel just as lost as I did when I was first Embraced... that feels like a life time ago. I am not sure how to understand my life yet again. I was the Prince of New York. I still should be. What the fuck am I supposed to do now?
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